To yesterday's child:
I thank you for not judging me because I appeared different. For recognising my difference and, yet, not holding it against me.
I know that you might have been fascinated by my wheelchair and wanted, as you did, to drive it around. Actually, to drive me around…
I appreciate the little time we spent together. The short time we spent getting to learn something about each other.
Perhaps, then, you filled within me a need of a little brother or sister, whom, you know, will seek you when they’re afraid of the dark and trust you will reassure them and take away their fears.
You might have also stirred deep in my heart, a paternal instinct that desires to care and protect all whom may feel unsure about life. Frightened of a a life which sometimes appears so new and unknown. Especially when facing moments of sadness and doubt following a disappointment or an ugly event you still can't express or have the words to describe..
I am not sure whether I gave you anything in return. I know that I was tired and maybe I could have shared more of myself to you.
I am neither sure what impression I left on you. Or whether I could have seemed distant. If so, I am sorry.
For sure, you have renewed my commitment to look beyond the illusion of the self.
A self so preoccupied in defending its hollow existence that it finds no place for others.
A self so absorbed in the lies it tells itself that it is ignorant of its unreality.
And the reality of life?
A life made up of joys and sorrows, life and death, love and hate.
A life where we share a common experience of humanity.
Born into a world and a life we don't choose - to live on through all the good and bad, and, ultimately, to die without knowing what there is beyond with any degree of certainty.
This life. Precious and unique. And, yet, a life we take so for granted.
We experience dissatisfaction as we seek refuge in a material life that is, in itself, impermanence and empty.
There's no happiness...
Until we are ready to recognise our vulnerability not as a sign of weakness or servile submission but as a matter of fact. That we were never meant to be divided amongst ourselves and accept we all need the help and support of those around us - whoever we are..
A humility that forces us to look at at each other on the same level because we are the same human beings. Similarly prone to the ravages of time and decay of matter. .
Birth, ill health, old age and death. No one can escape them. But we can make our life and the life of others worthwhile if we're ready to be more compassionate and less judgmental. Less accusatory. Less ready to fit people into boxes when we come to relate to them on a personal, human, level.
And, yes! It had to be you, a young child who reminded me of the need to open my heart to the other. To open who I am also to my own awareness.
Only with a motivation to learn from our experiences.
Dear yesterday's child,
Since we never had the time to say good bye, I would like to tell you that I will cherish our short encounter for as long as my memory will serve me..
I wish you all the peace and happiness for the future and for the present - which remains the more important as all futures depend on it..
I assure you that you have given me more than I can ever give back.
Thanks.
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